In one of the entries of her blog THE BIG BOOK of INTIMACY Inese Indāne or ININ NINI wrote the universe's confession of love for each of us. The following words are also heard there:

"I love you when you alone look into the mirror and wink at yourself, because while there are no other evaluations around, your depths behind the black pupils assure you - you are everything, everything".

This is exactly my feeling when talking to Ines, everything is there - that universe, that mystery, that love of nature and that self-awareness that every woman tries so hard to search and find. That part of what she found, she passes on - in her lectures, in the essence of her MOONLIGHT tribe, and in herself. She has something to say, and if you have the courage to listen, what she says today can become your (and my) tomorrow.

You are bright - both visually, in words, and in what you do, and I would like to think that there is a part of society for whom you are uncomfortable . You talk about sex, take your child to the jungle, invite people to return to their inner origins and express how much the universe loves. How do you live with this known inconvenience?

I am very aware of this discomfort, and it has taken me a lot of strength, tears, rising, taking to accept it. It has always been a dual feeling - on the one hand, the desire to be accepted and loved, on the other hand, the fact that I simply cannot not do what I have to do, say what I have to say.

I have no selfish interest in provoking or drawing attention to myself as a person - I want to draw attention to the things that I think are so important to this world.

If it happens through me as an instrument, I accept it. It's a fire that burns inside, it's bigger than me. But I can't deny that I feel this discomfort you're talking about - it's often the case that when I'm in a crowd where there are people I know every day and maybe we've had a friendly conversation just a moment ago, an empty field is formed around me because I'm uncomfortable and people don't know if they want to advertise the fact that we have friendly relations. That one part of me still hurts sometimes, and it was admittedly a big shock at first. But that pain has become like an old ailment, like rheumatism, of which I am well aware - it is insidious. Humanly, it still requires some acceptance every time, but if even one out of 100 people is helped by what I as a person am trying to trigger , then it is worth it that the crowd around me separates.

And yet you are open to the bone - there seems to be no trace of shyness characteristic of Latvians, protecting your homestead and not calling out for sex or money. How do you explain it yourself?

Maybe it will sound like I am jumping , but at least I myself feel that way and I want to feel it, that I have exactly that Latvian, perhaps the most profoundly prehistoric local, that there is in general. The one that breathes there and is still alive under the moss, in the forests, in the untouched swamps. I also have Slavic blood in me, and I feel it very much. I have my own feelings and ideas about how we got to this life, but that doesn't stop me from being interested in body traces and ancestors as well. My, so to speak, imported great-grandmother is from Ukraine, the Black Sea. It is a story about a Latvian boy who fell in love with a blue-eyed beauty with a black braid around her head. Maybe that hot blood was needed to stir up the power that lies down there, for us northerners.

But openness has always been in me, even when I worked in a business environment. Perhaps in a different form or not yet fully realized, but right now I can clearly see that people often want to build a house on a messy foundation.

A person can carry and carry new things in a dirty room, hoping to feel better, but as soon as there is someone who wants to clean this room, it is difficult for those sitting on the sofa to lift their feet. First you have to clean the bottom of the bed, and that's probably why I'm so frankly uncomfortable - I cut and pick so that the new one can grow.

Because only when you make the decision to cut off the old, the way for the new opens.

People have inflated ideas about my work, they prefer to see only the surface, the screaming. The deepest truth is that I am a cleaner and I feel real and good about it - with my work I help people to throw up what bothers them - fear, laziness, pain.

Sometimes also literally. And my responsibility is also to clean it all so that there is a clean foundation for the new one. I am often not accepted, because we have a cult of creation - nothing, even the most deformed, must be mixed up, only up, up.

You seem to be either really brave or a little crazy. Many might ask, why do you need it?

How interesting that we have lived in this civilization to the point where openness, lively interest, care for oneself and others, love, passion are called courage. They should be basic things, posture. I'm just trying to do everything, keeping my back straight and not crawling in a can , trying with all my heart to see connections and caress, and sometimes the deepest caressing is yelling - get up! I don't always succeed, I eat black earth in this, I make mistakes, I feel, but there is no such option - not to do it. Is it courage? I guess that's living life.

If everything has a beginning, then what is your beginning on this conscious path to awareness?

Each of my rise stories can be treated as small feats, but I choose to look more broadly. I rather look at it as a constant walking (let's be honest, sometimes crawling, then jumping, then flying, then completely stopping) step by step throughout life. However, I am also aware that sometimes it is important to tell the other person the small steps, because then he feels that he is capable of something, that he does not have to fire a cannon right away, but the big is formed from the small. One of the first such steps of my awareness was in my teenage years, when I became seriously ill, as a result of which I was treated for some time at the Vaivaru Rehabilitation Center . It was a time when I could once again be in nature, in wildness, in reality, because the center was surrounded by forests and the sea. I think from that moment I unconsciously made the decision that this was the coolest feeling I wanted to be in. At that time it felt like I was coming home - because I grew up in the woods and swamps. In this feeling, I find myself and am able to make decisions about my life - to understand whether I should get out of the particular box or stay in it. Do I feel that natural force within me is moving and has a chance to express itself? If not, it's time to either move forward or return to where you lost your tracks. If I look back, even when working in different brands, I consciously or unconsciously tried to create this feeling of mine - with greenery, plants, antiquity, cramp, mystery inside. I'm still always trying to find a way to express what I have to say what is in me. That's how the MOONLIGHT tribe was born, that's how the MOONLIGHT tribe transformed into a tribe, and now I've come to lectures and ceremonies - that's my environment, that's where I feel alive. It is a tribe where

the most important thing is the person - how he changes, transforms, experiences.

Sharing my authentic experience, simplicity, realness, connecting very deep spiritual things with this matter, reality. I'm not teaching anyone, I'm sharing my story, which also has something bigger, older than me flowing through it.

Brave steps also come with great fear. Be honest - were you afraid to leave a good job to throw yourself into the unknown?

I have always been terribly afraid. I have gone through this fear, that's why I am able to talk to people about it, to encourage them. Every time I've made these big decisions, I've been scared. And maybe not so much for myself as for the people and the responsibilities I have taken on.

Fear is a fantastic teacher, because when you overcome it, you get to the next level - you see things in a completely different light.

There, on the other side, fear always has something - you can't know what, but it is there. There you can get that feeling of adrenaline and happiness that this world is even more interesting than you probably thought.

Where are you now - in comfort, happiness, peace? Can it even be a constant quantity?

I am in a process, a process of growth, where something is constantly born anew, something dies, something rots, something blooms, something bears fruit. And there are hundreds of such processes in me - because there are also many points of contact with the world. There are things where I'm stuck, there are things where I shine, there are things to say goodbye to, but I can't yet. There is emptiness and there is fulfillment. Accepting that everything is constantly changing means a lot to me, it has opened me up to peace, flow, much deeper, more interesting levels.

And yet there will always be people who will not understand, will shrug their shoulders in confusion and ask why all this, why such self-searching and self-awareness is necessary at all. And really - why, if we are talking about a woman, would she need to get to know herself?

Firstly, because it is not natural to stand still. Nature does not exist like that. In it, everything grows and develops or dies, which is also a form of development. You can stop looking, the universe will find you. Maybe it will shine once more gently - recover and start living. Then the second time on the heavy . For preventive purposes, it is more painless to open yourself. However, my observation is that it does not help much if a person only analyzes his transformation process with his mind, trying to grasp everything, it is more important to be, to get himself inside his body. The only thing a person can really do is work and grind themselves. Such a well-worn phrase, but only a few can accept it, most of them really want to sort out the others.

When you work with yourself, it's like a bud opening to life and freedom, and amazingly, the rest of the world flourishes with you.

Often this conversion is silent and imperceptible to others, but it happens. Searching does not mean automatically walking and jogging along spiritual paths - searching is a lively interest in what is happening in yourself and in the world around you. It's disinterest, a state where you don't care. Choose yourself what to be. Just in parallel, you know that it is precisely because of indifference that so much shit has been created in the world, so much hurts people, plants, mountains, rivers. There are a greedy few who do and millions who don't care. Your search and immersion could possibly make a better tomorrow for your children, your loved ones, I think this is an important argument for a woman. Secondly, maybe this acquaintance will make you less dependent on others, maybe you will feel yourself and also be able to look at others with more loving eyes. For me personally, it is a story about the fact that there are millions of wonderful views out there, a very beautiful reality. So why do I keep the window closed, the curtains drawn?

What do you have to go through to get to know yourself? And isn't it too difficult a task when there are so many responsibilities, so many roles around?

I have no illusions that it is very difficult for a woman at this time to be and push through with her true, often rejected and despised self . While she goes through all the blocks of information - experiences, stereotypes, it takes a long time, and it is often the case that she can get out of it quickly only with a particularly painful event in her life, for example, a divorce or a pronounced feeling of happiness that arises from realizing herself in her vocation, having a child or something else. But only one solution -

if I don't feel comfortable in the story where I am, or I want to improve it, then something has to be done about it.

And it should start not with reprimanding others, but with feeling myself, touching in all its beauty and blackness and understanding what prevents me from being the way I really want to be.

Let's not be asses - we live in a time like never before, our access to different information, resources, people is phenomenal, so now it's a matter of choice for each person. Open up or continue the old song. As long as something resonates in you and you are ready to do something with your dissatisfaction, then you have all the possibilities and you cannot say that life has divided you.

However, there are so many women in Latvia who have denied their essence and at the same time are waiting for a scenario worthy of a fairy tale in their life - with a prince of dreams on a white horse and the fulfillment of all their wishes...

I really hope that women understand what it really means before they even get into a relationship.

Relationship is the closest way to be with yourself, it is an endless path of transformation, where endless growth is required.

This is easy to say, but you need to be aware of whether you will be really ready for the fact that the relationship will die and be resurrected countless times. You need to understand whether you are ready for such raw openness and simplicity in your relationship with another person. This does not mean that the miracle will disappear. Often our expectations and misunderstood interpretations of childhood fairy tales about princes lead us into wrong relationship patterns. Fairy tales should be viewed in a completely different way - for example, Cinderella, for me, is a story about how to find that connection for your soul when you feel complete and real. It can be called the divine, the moment when the soul feels at home. The prince is just a symbol of the fact that someone is always calling us to rise from our ashes, to find our unique, royal nature, to connect with the universe. But over the centuries, we have reduced this wonderful soul advice to literally waiting for a prince. Then that's what happens - wait for the other to burn the god in you. It doesn't happen, the story is only about you, how you find the strength to stand up, to find a connection with life, with reality.

Who are you as a woman, mother, wife?

Constantly changing, with one central axis - I try to do everything to the best of my ability and accept if I fail. And I often fail, but underneath it is a pure feeling, a pure love, which tends to be destructive as well, through which old pain, ignorance, anxieties pour through, but if you can observe it from the outside, if you can catch these things and work with them, then everything is fine. Totally messy in order.

How would you describe your relationship with a man, with your husband - where does the awareness of your relationship lie?

My challenge in relationships is that I go too deep. I have to constantly try to find a balance between simply being and a constant journey of transformation. I am guided by my inner voice, but it is important not to turn the other person into just a tool through which you explore your path, your passion, but to see that he, in turn, has his own passion, a path that he wants to develop. Give the other room to be. And it is far from easy.

I would say that it is respect - to grow both together.

In the end, there are no such real recipes - there is such groping, digging through and looking for proof of one's growth and development.

For many women, the wedding day is a dream come true. What do you think this day actually symbolizes and how can a bride not lose herself and inner peace in it?

A lot depends on what has brought you to this day. Are you open about your reasons, motives? Your peace and sense of completeness also depends on it. I'm talking about that fundamental sense of basic peace, because in such an event there will always be excitement on top, that's how it should be, it's a big celebration, a huge event. However, speaking of basic peace, there are women who have deliberately decided to do something wrong in their lives and to cover up something with a wedding. There are a lot of brides who realize that they are getting married for the wrong motivations - they want that princess event and the wedding is like a drug - they will be intoxicated for a little while. But in such a case, you cannot save yourself. Fundamental unrest will be there.  For everyone else, my feeling is - be aware of what this day really is and what levels it operates on.

The wedding day is the day of initiation. Something very important has ended and is moving to a new level. You become others, you commit to grow and create together.

And it needs witnesses around it - those who see and recognize this great event. It has been like that for a long time. Therefore, the bride and groom should understand that in this event they should try to connect two things,

it is a gift and gratitude to family, relatives, friends who have accompanied you so far, thanks for being in your life. And at the same time, it is also a celebration of the love between you two.

Before the wedding, the bride and groom should understand what those events and moments will be, which are intended only for the two of them and will allow them to keep the peace. It may not even be done in one day - it may take two days with your own little ritual and another with the big celebration and all the wedding activities. The most difficult thing is trying to do these two things at the same time or thinking that there will be a big day when everything around me will fall and I will only be able to feel without giving anything. However, if you are aware of these two levels in your wedding and prepare for it, it can turn into a big - creating moments where you thank everyone you love from the bottom of your heart, with creativity and love, and focus only on them. And then inserting moments when everything, pofig about everything, we let ourselves into the ferns to make love and look into each other's eyes. And in the stars. And again in the eyes.